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trying2survive Posted - 09 September 2011 3:16
Hi. I'm a 15 year old girl. My parents are divorced and I have a special needs brother. I live with my mother and brother. My mother is bipolar and depressed. She has attempted suicide many times, landing her in the hospital each time.
She's hard to live with mostly because of her paranioa. I have to watch what I say every moment I'm around her because I could never know which way she'll twist my words in her mind.
Last year I started a new hobby. Its called cutting. I've also tried killing myself which landed me in the psychiatric ward of a hospital two times. To add to my problems, I'm in the process of being molested by a girl who was in my school last year, but she graduated 12th grade so maybe I won't see her as often. I am currently seeing a psychologist and a psychiatrist but unfortunately due to past accurances, I no longer trust anyone. Technically speaking, I'm thinking of killing myself right now. Its gotten that bad. If anyone has a word of advice, it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance.
HTH Posted - 15 September 2011 23:35
PLEASE DON'T DIE!!! I care about you and need you here, and Hashem cares about you and needs you here. Your husband will need a wife and your children will need a mother. The world will NEVER be the same without you!

Yet, your situation is very, very difficult, and it is very hard to give advise without knowing you, your family, and your community. However, in a general way, here is what I think: 1. Please tell your psychiatrist and psychologist what is going on - trust is not the issue right now; keeping you safe and sound is the issue. 2. Please go to your community Rabbi and tell him what's going on. He is an objective observer, and has "pull" in the community. Together, you and he can make assessments as to whether or not you need to leave your home or school.

Your story is such a painful one. Yet, I believe from the bottom of my heart that you CAN overcome this.

patoodle Posted - 15 September 2011 23:35
It's sounds like you have a lot (that's a huge understatement) on your plate. PLEASE DON'T KILL YOURSELF! You will get through this!
realperson Posted - 07 October 2011 2:53
wow. your story breaks my heart.....please try to hold on!!!! God NEVER gives you a single drop more than you are strong enough to handle!!!!! hang in there, God loves you and He is watching out for you, He is holding you every step of the way!! i know that it may be hard to feel that now, but when you look back you will realize that your tests are only here to make you stronger!!! i know you can do it, you sound like such a strong person!! please dont let go!!!!!!!!!
Hashem WILL help!!! Look at the good!!!!

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